feeling of inferiority, rejection, sadness.
total loss as to how to continue.
sad reality. despicable circumstances. utter irritation and regret.
i have not been in a good mood. for a long long time. i doubt it will heal soon.
so
Three feet away the jagged line runs
as marked an hour ago when the earth collapsed
even now the crowds stream in
for the loved ones, the lost ones, the missing ones.
i sit here, by the crater rim, pondering
the mangled mass that lies beneath.
tracking the harsh pale mist rising.
as the last tuft of soil tumbles in.
wailing screams, blaring [...]
it doesn’t matter that no one can read. it doesn’t matter anyone. because i don’t care. I. .D.O.N.’.T. .C.A.R.E.
just another pointless meaningless day which amounted to nothing, NOTHING. no meaning, no accomplishment, no pleasure, no satisfaction. another futile day lived in my undead life.
there was rain. again. in the afternoon. deadly rain. a rain that [...]
Ah. what a magnificent afternoon today.
In thunder, lightning and in rain. The sky grew dark, as if the sun had decided to set earlier than usual. but maybe not, because it went from white to ashen grew, skipping past the pale blue, the warm yellow and the fiery red. The air turned as if the [...]
have finally gotten a gmail account, despite all the controversy.
jianhui@gmail.com
♦ 9
Joker feels himself growing, he feels it in his arms and legs, he feels that he isn’t just something he’s imagining. He feels his anthropomorphic animal’s mouth sprouting enamel and victory. He feels the lightness of the primate’s ribs under his dressing gown, feels the steady pulse that beats and beats, pumping the [...]
♦ 8
There can be no denying that creating an entire world is a highly commendable achievement. Though even more respect must be due to an entire world capable of creating itself. And vice versa: the mere experience of being created is as nothing compared to the overwhelming sensation of conjuring oneself out of zilch and [...]
♦ 7
Who could enjoy the cosmic fireworks display when the rows of seats in the heavens were filled with nothing but ice and fire? Who could have guessed that the first bold amphibian was not only crawling one small step up the shore, but also taking a giant leap on the long road to [...]
in a lone patch down by the silver creek
where the salmon come alive
stood tall a rotten apple tree
bearing the fruit of life
came along a stubborn soul
born of endless greed
who fixed a ladder of timbered planks
but for a morsel to eat
adventuring up the rickety wreck
teetering tottering forth
but behold one leg snaps in two
leaving but [...]
20.04.2004 20:04hrs
the americans don’t get it.
more play of numbers in the new millienia.
it is today.
